辗转难眠，睡不好，又睡不着。。
少了风扇的旋转，地板还是冰冷的。。
我的手，也是。。
冰冷的手，为何没有冰冷的心呢？
脑袋特别的清醒，但是却给了我一双疲惫的眼睛。。
事情总是没有两全其美，
我要入眠，却失眠了。。
我要头脑简单，却更复杂了。。
我要。。却得到不要。。
没想到，嗜好就是睡觉的我，也会失眠。。
失眠并不好受，有理由的失眠更加的不好受。。
理由，这也许更本并不是一个理由。。
死脑袋，又发生故障。。
让我睡吧，我不要有头脑，我不要有思绪，我不要有情感。。
原来，失眠就是这样。。
Recently learnt about emotion triangle, it said human tends to suppress core emotion, and manifested as either a defense or inhibitory emotion. The emotion that we tends to inhibit are shame, guilt ... There are fear and inferiority that governs my heart - I have to learn to address and admit my feelings better, and make a decision to communicate or set a boundary. It is hard to actually do so, and I know after I have done it - I can sense my guilt and shame. It is like a vicious cycle. I have to make a promise to myself - be mindful, be steady and let my head clears. Don't react much...But at the same times I am glad that I did say something. I did express myself. I did feeling less intense. I treated it as a progress. Anyway I felt sorry of the people that I hurt - when I am still a human with sin...
u ok? ><"
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ReplyDeleteof course good =D
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