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2 and half months passed...

Have been here for 2 and half months, God has shown me his purpose to bring me here. He wants me to grow nonetheless he allows me to learn everything new out of my tiny world.

Western culture, definitely very different than us. Speaking and listening to them (particularly diary conversation), I sometimes cannot fill in the gap. Either they uttering with their slang, or they speak quite fast. Well, mentality is different and understanding of semantic meaning of words could be as well different.

Education system and setting, it is shame to make a comparison. Lots of intervention needed in my tiny country, I am really amazed by their professionalism, proficiency of material resources, teaching standard, and environmentally friendly concept, and others.

Well, what I m really blessed ....

The hall that I am living, is not my first choice. But, I am delighted to get it. My first choice is pretty near bar, if I have to stay there, I am afraid I have sleep disturbance everyday.

Some people have complained about their terrible flat mates being dirty, refuse to clean up mess or making noise all the time. However, my flat mates never give me any such troubles. Sometimes, they even washed up for you.

I have met some nice Asians, I m feel comfortable with their presence, at least they have given me some warmth.

I have a very nice supervisor who really to offer help for my research, I really hope I can get through well with her assistance.

Learning in different environment, is also a preparation for serving community. My strong patriotic spirit is still have flame in, need to be spark up one day.

Culture, is uniquely differential who we are now

Hui Ru

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房间

锁在房间里,自己一个人的空间。。 享受着自己的气味。。 房间,是我逃避的避难所。。 小时候,我会在黑漆漆的房间哭泣。。 让眼泪自由的掉落, 不敢痛快地哭,因为会被骂。。 会把自己藏在被单里默默的哭泣 所以,只有我的床能够感觉到温温的湿度。。 也许,这是从小养成的习惯, 长大了,还是觉得房间是我的私人空间。。 因为,房间才能让我把情绪抒发。。 特别是负面的情绪。。 现在,有股冲动, 不想出门,只想待在房间里。。 就算发呆。。 我想,与世隔绝。。 只是与亲近的人联络。。 逃避自己。。 不想面对自己。。