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Awana Trip with Buddies

We ahead to Awana Genting at 8am in the morning, even though only slept for an hour. The purpose is not for leisure, we went due to club commitment. We were invited to join our buddy - Wai Keen birthday celebration in Awana Genting. The accomodation was free, sponsored by his parents. We got free meal as well sponsored by parents too.

Excitingly, we departed from 1 utama, with a total of 10 buddies. Finally, we realised that task to handle buddies is not so easy, but is challenging. We need to have a good memory to remember all of their name, if not is hard for us to supervise them. They have strong curiosity, but one thing I admitted that actually they are quite well-disciplined unless there is something seemed attractive to them.

Looking at my steps on the field in front of the condo, I was in a calm mood. Mingles around with a bunch of cute buddies, sometimes I felt glad, sometimes I felt a bit irritated. This time, I went with my own emotional bandage. I can't fully pay attention to them, thus I am sorry for them. Luckily, Dream is with me. She brought a positive energy to me, be my listener for a time moment, helped me to handle buddies, and touched me with her message.

Each of the buddies have their own unique characteristic. Their special act toward you, is unexpected but you are grateful to them. For instance, my buddy hugged me and said I like you the most; one male buddy shared with me his cake; one female buddy asked me to go have dinner; and so and so.

A lot of reflection has done after this trip. I really have fun with them, and I wish I could do more. I wondered "how much I could really do for them?" I know my limit, sadly. But, I will do the best with my ability. I am glad that those buddies have their lovely parents who never give up on them. I hope that people with disabilities don't look down on themselves, and have to welcome life positively.

Yes, they did. They had inspired me. Not forgot to mention, the speech that Wai Keen made during his birthday is so heart-warming. Thanks to buddies' laughter and acoompanion. After this trip, my heart has lighten a bit. I felt I had recharged a bit.

Again, looking at my steps..how far I can go....

Hui Ru

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