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Tagged myself...What i dislike myself... 1. I am selfish... 2. I am sturbborn... 3. I am emotional... 4. I am too sensitive... 5. I am indecisive... 6. I have childlike behavior... 7. I like attention... 8. I always have miscommunication... This is what i have possed..a lot more i guess..but these fews are my current thought...

"Boom..boom.." A sound of fireworks attracted my attention to look at the sky..Numerous of fireworks had beautified the sky at night...but the fireworks seem like a rocket, can't wait to disappear from our catch...A sudden moment of enjoyment, we still find it beautiful..but if we did not look at it immediately..the chance to enjoy it has gone... I felt that a lot of time..we have been given chance...but we let it bypass..and it flies away... for example Today we can watch (ri quan shi) at 4:30pm..if we didnt watch it, we have to wait for 15 years...i know it..but i didnt do it... When we are given chance to apologize..we didn't do so..perhaps the person didn't accept any apologize anymore... When someone invited you out for a gathering, you refused it, perhaps the person doesnt want to invite you anymore.. When you have a day to say Happy Birthday to someone, you forget or you didnt do..you have to wait for another year ... When your beloved passed away, you fe

财神(God of Fortune) came to my house last night..Do you believe it?? hehe..LOOK!!!

Just now reading the comment that my dear friend posted on my blog, sudden shock and sadness strike my heart..i m controlling my tear from coming out from my eyes...I don't want to cry... A person living and dying is unexpected..last time my friend got me to do her questionnaire on the attitude of person toward the issue of dying..i m not afraid of me myself dying one day..but i can't face the reality of my dear 1, or someone i know is dead... Last friday, we received a new from our brother when we were on the way back..My auntie is admitted to hospital due to stroke..She used to have high blood pressure and she did not take medicine consistently..I never know that she has high blood pressure..and i can't even think of she will suffer from stroke..i was stunned..and i started to pray for her in my heart... Now..she still in hospital..her left brain is filled with (淤血）.. i did not manage to visit her yet..but my mum said that she can talk fine...but her movement is restricte

当你的眼泪忍不住要流出来的时候，睁大眼睛，千万别眨眼，你会看到世界由清晰到模糊的全过程，而心却在眼泪滴下的那一刻变得清澈明晰！ A very meaningful sentences that i saw in a forum. The translation of English will be When your tear is about to shear, open ur eyes bigger, don't blink your eyes, and you will see the process of world is changing from clear to blur view, and the heart is becoming calmer after the tear has shear... Crying - is definitely a way for me to express my emotion when i felt down or sad or angry..For me, is hard to express my negative emotion in word, when i started it, i will cry and cry..and burst into a lot of tears..then i will sleep with tears... The next day, my eyes are swollen..but i felt better... Crying has its effect that could help me to release my emotion..in the state of crying, it might be hard for me to accept what had happened, i might questioning a lot of unpleasant thought in my mind..i might put a blame on myself or others over the problem that had occurred... Whenever my eyes full of tears, i dont feel li

If you reside in kampung area, you could feel the atmosphere of Chinese New Year pretty strongly... As a chinese tradition and local folk culture, there is 3 prayers during chinese new year - New Year eve, First day of Chinese New year, and Chu 9 ( for Hokkien)... Today, is the first prayer that we had for this 2009. As usual, we will prepare a lot of prayer foods and fruits, and also tonnes of silver papers... The first prayer is for so called God of SKY...This is because they wanted to thank God of Sky for blessing everyone has a properity havest last year... In here, you could see most of the people stayed up till 12am at least to conduct the prayer..This is not for religion...this is a local folk culture and tradition that practiced from generation to generation..basically followed what had done by our nenek moyang... I wasn't really understand much..but i had seen it from young till now..and the thing that i really enjoyed will be the noise of firecracker and fireworks, the no

As i am quite interested in laughter therapy, so here dedicate a post related to L.A.U.G.H. When i was in hostel, my friends gave me a nickname called Ms. Laughing Lady. Why?? Because i can't laugh non stop when i have been turn on to laugh..So, is kinda crazy right?? Now..my another co-op friends called me crazy or mad..because they r also shocked with my laughing..I can also laugh for simple or non funny thing, i can also laugh after everyone has stopped laughing, i can laugh unexpectedly.. Hmm..is it healthy to laugh so badly? I don't know..but i am sure that Laughter is good for healthy. By trying your very best to laugh, your laugh can help you to improve your immune system, can help you to regain your mood, can help you improve your intellectual skill..and etc.. The reason that i put clown to represent this post because the job of clown is make the audiences laugh. Last time, when i played O-card and one of the card that i chose was a clown picture. My description was &qu

Quite a funny clip..Hope that can cheer up someone :D

The current issue in my daily life - Respect. "Give it, to take it" Everyone deserves respect from others, and most importantly respect yourselves. In interaction with human, the pattern of your communication could trigger the person to form an impression on you. For instance, you are highly proud of yourself, what other people might think of you? They are not you, they wouldn't know that your way of talking, and they wouldnt able to adapt to you way of talking. Thus, the art of talking is indeed important. In a club, there is differential roles for each position. It is a protocol that everyone will follow. No matter the person is your friend or not, everything must be clear cut. In a club, there is only people that work together. For instance, if you didnt show your respect to your head, and how your head will feel? In the issue of prejudice or discrimination, everyone is unique and created by God. Why we wanted to stare at people with disabilities? Why we wanted to goss

There is no free lunch in the world..haha..why did i say so? Today, i planned to print my research journals during my 3 hours break, because i wanted to save my printer ink, and also fully utilized the RM 100 we paid for every semester... I waited in line for at least 30 minutes, and there was a group of students keep printing non stop...they printed their whole semester notes..was not only 1 person, 4 persons printed together..so..you could imagine how long i waited in line.. I needed to pass exam token to someone, as she told me "don't be late, i will be there at 2:30pm"..ok..i forced to quit waiting in line for printing..i went to wait for her as in the exam token was really important for her.. Ahan..i waited for 30 minutes..she did not appear..Finally she called me, and her mum was forgotten to take from me..i had been thinking in my heart, if i still queued up there, perhaps i got the chance to print everything alr.. Never mind..i got back to library and queued up ag

Haha..i always inspired by the Free Hugs campaign..It is indeed cool and important..will do more research on hugging..let's wait patiently.. :D Post a video first...

Today i had attended a forum regarding Acts of Disabilities 2008 oganized by Bar Council. Initially, i went to attend because i went with Best Buddies advisor, as well as got to know more about disabilities... The talk began with what is needed to be focus and changed in the Acts..there is 10% of population suffered from disabilities..the topic mostly focused on education, transportation, accessibility for disabled persons.. It was indeed eye opening for me..when the Q and A session started... Everything is about... Through their intonation of speech, could really feel their disappointment, anger, frustration, urge, and all sort of negative emotions toward the acts. "It is just a piece of statement, without any implementation" " Rapid KL has got new buses..however none of the buses think of the accessibility for disabled persons" " There is no parking space for disabled persons, so it is unfair to receive penalty or either clamping car" " One of the d

Happy.Angry.Sad.Laugh - is a game that i used to see in a Taiwanese entertainment show. Mood swing does happens, perhaps in a second, in a minutes, in a hour and ... I still remember an ads, when a baby is being swing on high, he is smiling because he could see the beautiful scene.. Yes, we are happy for pleasant; sad for unpleasant.. When someone did not laugh or smile, we tend not to bother the person because the person might experience sadness, mood less, or depressed.. Or when our friends are down, we try to be as happy as possible, to high up our friends, to make them laugh.. An inner happiness can't be pretend..We might put a mask in a public, we can be like a clown..intentionally putting on a big grin smile for everyone.. Hence, when we are alone..our private self rules on us..our true emotion hiding inside us, it flows unexpectedly...Our mood might not similar as we are in the public.. People might make an assumption on who we are..for instance, A is a stress free person,

It is easy to say thank you, But, it is hard to express the meaning of it, Thank you is not only humbly reply, It means deeper when you said to someone sincerely, A simple word - thank you can't show my gratitude, I do not know how much i have said thank you, Countless of thank you..all from my bottom of my heart, But, it seems not enough, Just a thank you unable to show my truly emotion and thought, Sadly, i did not how to put in words, I only know how to say thank you, And the only thing i could do is, Action speaks louder than words... Thank you, once again.. I have been so blessed in my life... I can't stop being so thankful... To all the people that i c are and love... Special Thanks to everyone who loves me, I am touched by everything that you did..as i said i got no wor d to express my emotion... Believing me, for my loyalty in friendship...

Today, i told a lie..I wasn't feel bad, because it saves me.. You know what? Today i was driving from leisure mall. There is a turning from Petronas Station, i did not follow the rules..i BROKE it in fact.. Unluckily, the traffic officers were right in front the corner road to wait for the victim. I am one of the victims.. The police officer asked : "Did you know that you break the rules?" I said innoncently:" i don't know, because i came from johor" (Everyone in the car was quiet..and pretended we all did not know anything) The police officer did not know how to respond..i passed him my ic and driving license card..i already accepted the fact that i will get the 3rd saman in my life.. But..but... The police office looked guilty, and did not know how to respond to us.. He asked: "everyone has fastened the seatbelt?" i said:"Yes..you couldn't see clearly because they all wearing black shirt?" Then we all laughed... After a while..he sa

Heart could be very heavy till a normal human body can't even able to lift up. When you choose to be optimistic, the other party will try to make you feel worse over your positivity. When the other person didn't want you to feel bad over it, but you yourself can't overcome the guilt that you have done. When you force to lift up a parcel excess your physical strength, will you still take it? How do you lift it up, if you really want to challenge your own physical limitation? Mood instability will cause a person feel uneasy, uncomfortable, unable to breath and etc.. When i choose to be silent, my heart is heavy When i m listening to certain music, i am healing my heart my soul

Overall, this movie is WORTH watching. Here, i want to share my insights that i gained from the Cape No 7 Don't delay and hesitate the things that you want to do. You will REGRET over the unfinished business !! Bravely pursue your dream, wishes, goals and etc. You are the master of all the golden opportunities. Love conquers all. Love can motivate a person to DO things again. You will be appreciated if you do everything sincerely. Different characters in the movie have inspire me. The old grandpa - I m the treasure. I really want to perform on the stage, no matter what kind of instrument you asked me to play. He managed it, and he made me see the passion of him in music. The Ma-ra-san - His hardworking and friendly approach in promoting his rice wine..when we are doing a thing, how much effort that you have put constitute to how success you could be. The traffic policer - He lost his wife, He was in great pain, he missed his wife so much..He made himself turned into new leaf..an

Honestly, first time in my life, i got tagged by someone in my blog. Haha..Since this is the first, so i will do it! Perhaps, next time i won't do anymore :P Directions : Once you’ve been tagged, you have to write a post with sixteen random things, habits or goals about you. At the end, choose five people to be tagged, listing their names and why you chose them. Don’t forget to leave a comment (“You’re tagged!”), and to read your blog, you can’t tag a person who tagged you. Since you can’t tag me, let me know when you’ve posted your blog, so I can see your weirdness. 1. I want to be a counselor, psychotherapy, hypnotherapy or social worker 2. I want to own my counseling clinic 3. I want to grow spiritually 4. I want to provide for my families in monetary and emotional form 5. I always speak the opening, and people will not know that i finished my words 6. I am too emotional, easily cry and be pessimistic 7. I too care about the friendship 8. I am afraid of public speaking 9. I don&

Everything on earth has its own time and its own season Ecclesiastes 3:1 Maturity - there is no shortcut to grow. It takes years and years for us to grow from an infant to child to teenager to adult.. When we try to ripen fruit faster, it loses its flavor. A small plant need plenty of years of proper care only can grow as a tree.. Without patience and love in doing, how could the unripe person to grow. It is not the matter of how fast you grow, it is the matter of how strong you grow. We never in hurry because every good thing take time to ripe. Why it takes longer time for us to grow? We are slow learners . Once a problem occurred, we claimed that we have learnt the lesson. But, we tend to revert back to our own pattern of solving problem. Perhaps..we only escape..Thus, we repeat over and over again, till the time we really come into realization, only we know the pain. We have a lot of unlearn . Our habits or problems didnt develop overnight, it is hardly to go over just a blink of

Being happy could add years to your life. While happiness doesn't cure illness, it does help healthy people live about 7.5 to ten years longer , according to an analysis of more than 30 studies. "The size of the effect is comparable to that of smoking or not," says lead researcher Professor Ruut Veenhoven from the Erasmus University Rotterdam. Researchers don't know for sure how happiness fosters physical health, but happy people may be more likely to watch their weight and be more perceptive of symptoms of illness. The research is encouraging for those who are upbeat, but if happiness seems elusive, the study might be all the more depressing. The good news is that Australian psychologist Timothy Sharp says that happiness is something that can be learnt, much like healthy eating habits. Ways to get happy Set aside a worry time , such as half an hour after work. If worries come up at other times, put them out of your mind until worry time Practice random acts of kindne

Decision - make for yourself or others ? Sometimes, why certain people can't stop making decision for other people? Sometimes, why people didn't give a chance for people to make their own decision? Today, a discussion about joining a club... To join or not..all depends on our own will...if our will is destroyed by others..we wouldn't feel nice..perhaps..we will turn down the person's expectation..perhaps..we will hurt others.. I always believe that it is a childish act to force a person to join a club..the objectives of club will not be achieved if we insisted in doing so...When you force someone, have you think of the person's feeling? Have you think of other people feeling? Do you think that it is the most persuasive way to change the person to follow your way? Sometimes, we really love to join a club that interests us..but when we join it, we wouldnt feel happy or contented..it might be due to a lot of factors..such as dominant advisors, irresponsible committee m

" Thank you so much for organizing this party" - we have received a lot of thank you from parents... What is that ? ok..show time.. Photo session with my beloved team members =D Charmaine - the attention of the camera of the day =D James Bond 007 - cool Let's sing together Why i love Best Buddies? I have my reason..THEY are the reason. Although they are people with intellectual disabilities, being with them is just like a rainbow - so colourful and beautiful. My lovely friend - Charmaine I still remember a social worker told me " The greatest moment of my life, is being with them; i don't know why, i just like to hang out with them" - The passion in her, has touched me truly. Thus, i respect her, and thanks for her help toward Best Buddies. Look at the smile Lastly, i really very grateful that i have a great team. All are not only my members, but they are my friends.. Ker Shin, Evelyn, Nitia, Leena, Omer, Soke Ling, Doris, Hui Chian, Dream - thank you so mu

Money has flied away...aihh...Today, i received the 2nd saman in my life. I have to pay for illegal parking...So lucky am I, 2 months time i already got 2 saman !! Next time, i rather spend money for parking instead of illegal parking. Sometimes, i always thought that it is ok to park because i only parked for a while. But, whenever i did that, ok become not ok. Haha..i think i could never do illegal thing. Still remember when i was in primary school, i got caught in a spelling test. During the spelling test, i covered myself with lots of books, however it is a stupid act because my teacher is not stupid. Since then, i really scared to cheat. I got no complaint of the saman because i knew that it was my fault. Moral of the story, better think wisely before take any action, are we do the right thing?

Last night, we went out for a movie and a new year dinner. Beverly Hills Chiwawa was the movie of our choice. Nonetheless, it indeed a meaningful and funny movie. We enjoyed it the max. It has taught me how humanistic an animal could be, how do we as a human? Sharing of thoughts and emotion always the climax in friendship. We chit chatted, although we didn't go for count down, still it brought me a memorable night with them. What is your new year resolution? A common question that always being asked on the 1st of January. Everyone has their own goals to achieve, so do I. My new year resolution - Best Buddies is my concerned issue. I need people who have same passion as me in helping ministry. Best Buddies, here i am to commit myself, i want to make you known (Whoever we don't know Best Buddies, can refer to bestbuddiesucsi.blogspot.com ). Secondly, i wanted to grow spiritually. 2 things of 2009, there is a hope there is a will; There is a will there is a way. =D Friends, what i