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空白之谈

最近，肚子向我告状。。

它说：“喂，我总觉得空空的，很不舒服咯，要吐要吐”

莫名其妙，我也想要知道为什么这样。。

我说：“你不好受，难道我很好受？每天饱受折磨”

拖了一天又一天，明日复明日。。

终于，向医生投靠去。。

被审问了一大堆关于H1N1的symptoms, 我都想要偷笑，可是还是忍着。。

过后，离谱到问我读书状况。。不过，我想他是想知道我有没有太多的压力。。

他，很镇定的说“小事，不要紧，只是大肠急躁症”

饮食，与情绪（特别压力）是这个症状的主要原因。。

开了药librax给我，叫我吃。。。每天吃2粒。。。

如果，我还是无法控制，可能我即将成为药的奴隶。。

哎，发现到原来这个学期真的带给我许多的压力。。

不只学业上，还有一些麻烦的事务需要处理。。

压力，很清楚是自己给自己的。。

来得快，让我放纵它对我为所欲为。。

感觉到，我也许不太能控制自己的情绪，特别是气愤。。

每当生气时，就会发抖。。

没有想到，原来我真的可以变成恶魔。。

满脑子都有粗话，没说只是给面子。。

我，看到自己的极端。。我很讨厌。。因为我不应该。。

我的自我，消失了； 我的心，讨厌我了； 我的脑，累了； 我的身体，抱怨了；

我不开心，我大多数的时间就是低落，疲倦，因为我需要去面对。。

就算开心，也是短暂的，因为是我逃离现实所得的回报。。

自己搞不清楚自己的状况，又让别人操心。。

想着，就觉得肚子隐隐作痛。。。

脑就是空白的。。让我休息吧。。。


Hui Ru

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