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叹气

我有一个念头,

我想要喝酒,我想要抽烟。。想要都是危害自己健康的东西。。

这只是代表逃避,想要暂时性的快感,失亿。。

一个人的言语,非常的重要。。

无法沟通,也证明了自己无法为自己去狡辩。。

不想去讲,就证实了我想要去隐瞒或无言与对。。

一声的叹气,接着一声又一声。。

没法说明什么。。不想越描越黑。。

零乱的思绪。。我想把它变成拼图。。

拼出来的图,就不需要我多加解释。。

只需要看,不需要讲。。

我不懂怎样去做,才是对的了。。

我不懂要怎样,才能有双赢。。

开心,总是短暂;伤心,总是持久。。

呼一口气,是沉重的。。

吸一口气,还是沉重的。。

连呼吸都变得唉唉叹气。。


Hui Ru

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