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My volcano

My inner volcano has exploded without notification

I am unable to control this inactive volcano, it was suppressed for long times

It was my fault for keeping it secretly

It was also my mistake of losing control

My self is completely so different that my ideal image

I am an evil who is pretty much selfish

My emotion is ultimately much more important than others

A sin that I committed

I hate it

Hui Ru

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  1. AnonymousJanuary 24, 2010 at 12:34 PM

    Is good to let out all your FIRE...Next time don't always keep it, so it won't be a volcano, "sikit sikit jadi bukit bukit" so when is "sikit" just let it out, so it won't became "bukit"...I believe there is no one that is no "FIRE"..So don't HAte yourself, it will make ppl that LOVE you feel sad about it...Take Care

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  2. nana-January 24, 2010 at 12:57 PM

    hey =)
    it's never easy to keep it deep down inside. Even God also will have His temper. So, what's more a normal being in the sea of humanity?

    don't worry, for your volcano to erupt. Please let it all out. I am here with my ears wide opened.

    cheers. =)

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  3. Jovial TeoJanuary 24, 2010 at 10:43 PM

    Thanks for your words of encouragement. I felt warmth

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  4. DearJanuary 26, 2010 at 10:16 PM

    My dear having a volcano temper doesnt really commmitted to a sin...take it easy...jus let it be...muacks muacks

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