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Comfort Zone

My family is a shelter. In the past 20 years, I always lives in a comfortable environment, in which my parents support me in all aspect - emotionally, financially and mentally. I never have chance to experience any difficulties because they will solve all the problems for me.

My parents' love are unseen. Hardly they utter "I love you" to their kids. Hardly they cuddle or kiss their kids. Therefore, we are not used to express our love to them too.

But, they use their whole life committed to us. My mum accompanied me during my exam period. My dad helped me to obtain signature from Head of Village for application. Those were actions that they did.

I am a blessed child. I am contented and satisfied, because my life is always smooth and steady under their shelter. From now on, I am a grown up baby.

"Do you feel scared to go alone to UK?" Few of them asked me this. Yes, I do. If I said no, I am lying to them, to myself. But, I know I am no more a baby that always someone takes care of me anymore. I have to take out my covert gut. It's time for me to give it a try.

Staying at home for few days, tomorrow I have to back to a hassle city again, to resume my work.

Move on, leave the comfort zone.


Hui Ru

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  1. Chris LohJune 17, 2010 at 10:56 PM

    My dear....you are never alone :) I love you...

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  2. Charmaine TeowJuly 5, 2010 at 10:41 PM

    there is phase of life...moving forward & being better..read thru ur writing only i recalled mine..many years ago while i still greenish & how i struggled stepping out from comfort zone & now being independent in different aspects =) trust me, worth going thru...the future of u will be even better than now..uncertainty? sure has...rewards? wonderful!

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