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耶和华啊，为何我的心忧愁？
这句话，从 昨天开始就盘旋在我的脑海中
有时候，接受了太多的负面
无法输出，就渐渐让自己迷失在自己的困境里
自己可以意识到了，也告诉自己改变思想
有的，是有效的，但也时好时坏
其实一直都知道
别人对我的印象就是从不拒绝
只要稍微的说不，别人也许很难接受
确实，我很难说不，也很痛苦
但我渐渐学着说
忧愁的不只是别人不能接受我的不
而是别人听到我的不，还是不接受
用自己的办法想要我妥协
害怕的是，如果那人是有关系的人
忧愁啊，可能更像是压力，委屈
更觉得不受尊重

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