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2018年的最后一天Hui Ru
回顾今年的所有一切
上课既然让我哭了好几回
仿佛回到了中学考试
因为不会不懂却没时间了
大哭一场 哭了很久
但咬紧牙根度过了
那么忙碌的一年
却面对很多的离离合合
总觉得为何离开
明明好好的 明明我尽量做好了
人要走的 还是走了
经历了感觉像背叛
逃避很不想面对
心中的矛盾许多 但也这样过了
工作打理不如往常
因为真的太多到不想做了
好的事 今年终于完成了一个国外的演说
突破了 就是自己做了生意
欣慰的是 我与他和好了
但心情还是起起落落
回顾却让我很多的感触

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