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累计的事件与情绪,不要认为不谈就过去
其实就是吨积,直到忍不住就会爆发
内心是一个小剧场
心里很忐忑,很不平和
甚至有气愤,无奈,很难过
其实就是延生来
心中很抗拒一句话
别打扰你
还有评判接受到的信息
期望我选择独处的时候,对方是接纳的
而不是造成对方不舒服
知道对方是不舒服的,自己也给自己负担
压力下的互动品质特差
深怕我任何的话语再次造成伤害
而我自己情绪状态不好之下,整个过程变得很尬
我潜意识下,我也不知觉做了伤害动作
我到现在才知道
我对别人来说是个地雷
期望别人能够接纳同理我现实状况,逗我笑给我正面力量,但这个要求也许是不合理
我不够好的一面,好像是需要藏起来的
这让我很自卑,自责,因为显现了变成了困扰
我自己也焦虑吧,也表现出没事却也有事
我害怕做自己是被审判被厌烦
写这写这,我理清自己我慢慢变平和了。



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