心情指数:3
感受:失望，伤心
感受的感受:为难，失落，内疚，挣扎
想法:我不想接受情绪勒索，自我被压迫，越给于也越担心无法实现对方的期待，情绪是魔鬼应该控制住，是不是我需要达到标准才配爱
期待:我期待感情是一种舒服状态，彼此了解尊重，不是冷暴力，能够平静沟通，我期待自己能够不内疚也能够勇敢一点，我期待对方能够选择多关心，多聆听
渴望:被尊重，被关爱，被接受认同，自由选择
灵性的我:没自信，在感情里害怕冲突情绪风暴，自认自己的情商不高。我不该太要求自己，我也是有被关爱的需要。
Recently learnt about emotion triangle, it said human tends to suppress core emotion, and manifested as either a defense or inhibitory emotion. The emotion that we tends to inhibit are shame, guilt ... There are fear and inferiority that governs my heart - I have to learn to address and admit my feelings better, and make a decision to communicate or set a boundary. It is hard to actually do so, and I know after I have done it - I can sense my guilt and shame. It is like a vicious cycle. I have to make a promise to myself - be mindful, be steady and let my head clears. Don't react much...But at the same times I am glad that I did say something. I did express myself. I did feeling less intense. I treated it as a progress. Anyway I felt sorry of the people that I hurt - when I am still a human with sin...
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